sad day
Written on 04 March 2004 at 7:02 p.m.

Second entry today. So sad here. The person on the phone earlier was Jason's boss Justin. Justin's Dad died last night. Sigh. Justin is our friend and my age and his Dad was in apparently good health and exercised, but last night had "heartburn" and laid down and then made a strange noise, after which nobody could wake him up. Awful awful. Justin's dad worked in the shop also and Jason knew him pretty well and is upset. He stayed home from work because obviously the shop was closed, and he's been all sullen and cross all day. He's worried about his parents now. It's all so scary and... bad to think about. Funeral is Saturday, tomorrow I have to call early and have flowers sent and then take J's suit to the cleaners. And then I'm having lunch with Mom and going to my haircut.

At least I'll be busy so I won't be able to OBSESS over my chart. For crying out loud. I need to remember that people try for months to get pregnant and one episode of poorly-timed (or well-timed, depending on your perspective lol), um, activity is probably not going to result in anything. Sigh sigh sigh. I have just had such high temps and today I've been feeling sick and just... I don't know. I need to just calm down. We were going to maybe TTC over the summer anyway but yeah. I don't know. It's scary.

Lots of things are scary today. Heh.

I did link my charts over <====== there. Aren't you proud of me, Bonnie, for doing it all by myself? They will be more interesting when we actually are TTC, but I figured since I'm locked anyway I might as well. And Alice wanted to see them so voila. :) Somebody remind me to take them away if I unlock.

Okay I have to finish my ginger tea. It's helping with the ooginess I think.

Call your parents.

xoxoxo