reasons
Written on 10 March 2004 at 9:00 p.m.

Good things about not getting pregnant until 2006:

1. Can use maximal amount of non-at-work time during residency for sleeping, therefore being fresher and more able to learn, etc.

2. Will not be worried about baby while at work because baby will still be in heaven. Augmenting the more able to learn thing.

3. When baby is born, will be done with night call and therefore will be able to at least night-time nurse for as long as baby needs.

4. Can wear cute outfits mom bought me for two more years.

5. Caffeine.

6. Can have beer during upcoming basketball games, and champagne at graduation breakfast, and wine at the senior banquet, etc. Do I sound like a lush?

7. Can get some of our debt paid off.

8. Will likely be able to afford good schools no problem by the time the kid needs them.

9. Maybe by that time J's brother will be married and the baby could possibly have some cousins.

10. Did I say the caffeine one?

11. Will be able to devote much more time to motherhood.

12. Will be able to have two babies fairly close in age so that they can be friends, etc.

13. Will not be starting so many new things all at the same time.

I am glad I took that test. After I took it I was a little bummed for like.... ten, twenty minutes. And then poof I wasn't. I was relieved and now I am almost sure I don't want to TTC until 2006, which was our original plan before any of these modified plans. I think it's the best. I think I just have too much time on my hands to sit and think about wanting a baby and once I am working more this will be a much better situation for all involved.

I think.

Mind could change at any time, of course, which is one reason I wanted to type all this out la la.

Okay getting ready for bed so it will be tomorrow. Dad called tonight and he sent a gift that should be here tomorrow. Plus mom got me two adorable skirts and the coolest little shoes ever and I want to wear them. And I bought a giant muffin to have with my coffee tomorrow. So I'm excited for my birthday and I want it to be here now. How old am I turning, again? Heh.

Okay going.

xoxoxo